Mary Helen Porter

A Monologue of Doors

 

When a door closes a window opens.

Why not another door?

Is it because we decide to learn from our mistake and take a different path?

So in this case that different path is a window.

Or is it because a window seems nicer than a door.

I said seems.

Staying with me?

I said it seems nicer than a door

Because in my mind when I think of a window and a door, the window is always smaller

than the door.

The door physically shows you more of what you are entering into.

Therefore, you can better compare the ugliness of the path you about to take-

But a window, which is smaller, shows you lesser amount of ugliness and beauty.

Being an optimist (and I'm not talking about pessimists because they would have shut me

up when at my opening statement) but being an optimist, you would say "hey that way

doesn't look too bad. I'm sure that's all the turmoil there's going to be and look at the

view!"

But being an optimist you forget about proportions.

Yes! Proportions!

The proportion is still applicable.

The proportion of ugliness to beauty is still 1:1 even if you can't always see entirety of a

certain factor.

And depending if you are a glass is half full person (which I'm guessing you are or you

wouldn't be listening to this unless you find delight in giving optimists satisfaction) or

half empty person, the proportion can be altered by your own perception.

In my case, I chose to ignore the ugliness when looking out the window and I jumped

believing that the beauty would catch me. But I forgot that there's a 1:1 proportion of

beauty to ugliness and then remember the proportion and remember that there's an ugly

three hundred and fifty six story fall before me.